Factsheets My experience with depression

To protect the identity of the people who contributed these statements, we have combined ones from several people who did the mailed version of OnTrack.

Name:

Tom

Age

45

What caused it?

Lots of bad things happened at the same time. I lost a lot of money through bad investments. My relationship went through a rough patch. People were being made redundant from work.

What happened?

I didn't notice it at first. I thought my “moodiness”, as my wife called it, was a reasonable reaction to all of the things that were going on. Who wouldn’t feel cranky? Then I started to withdraw. Previously an avid (amateur) fisherman, I stopped going out on the boat. I didn’t have enough energy to get out of bed in the morning.

At work, I felt like curling up under my desk and sleeping. But despite my fatigue, I couldn’t seem to get to sleep at night, and when I did sleep I had awful nightmares. I couldn’t concentrate and felt terrible about myself – the guilt was overwhelming.

After two months of feeling like this, I took myself along to my GP, who diagnosed depression.

Recovery

My recovery was slow. I started taking anti-depressants and began a course of psychotherapy with a psychologist. Two years later, I now feel like I am back to normal. However, I will never forget that dark period and so I am always vigilant with my health so that I don’t end up back there.

The mailed version of the OnTrack programme helped me enormously.